Jenuh

tau jenuh? bosen, jemu, capek, lelah dan temantemannya. dari kemaren entah kenapa i feel kinda bored. extremely bored. luntang lantung ga jelas di kosan deh jadinya. mo tidur juga mood lagi ga enak. mo belajar males, mo pergi keluar apalagi. males banget sama orang orang dan sama diri sendiri. sampe finally i fell asleep at 10.
paginya bangun (dengan harapan kalo badmood udah ilang), i fell better. tapi abis itu juga bete lagi. ga jelas lagi. kerjaan cuma online sama baca baca handout kuliah. X(

sesiangan itu akhirnya nemu pemecahan masalah juga. yaitu: nelfon adek! huah. she is my drug! ;p relieved juga akhirnya dan habis itu langsung telfon orangtua.. makin anget rasanya. heho

and the conclusion is saya HOMESICK! give me December and please hand me LIBURAAAAAAAAAAN!

i am a future doctor! oh SNAP

hell yeah! i am a medical student, everyone! (sooo?)
yes, what do i mean? i AM a medical student so it means that i have to spend my time for years (and forever) to keep studying medical medical and medical.. I AM GOING TO BE A DOCTOR IN YEARS! oh please. i just realized it.. recently.
being a doctor is not easy for me, at all! God. suddenly i can imagine what my future kinda like be.. hospital, patients, drugs, examination, teamwork, blood, syringe! maaaaaaan. I AM NOT READY. uggh

i am so afraid and so challenged to be A PERFECT DOCTOR. a doctor whom my patients will come and trust their problem in me. i have to be a TRUSTWORTHY person. reliable... what a big responsibility fomme. it deals about life or death..

i am gonna spend 3.5 years in college and 1.5 years in clinical rotation.. and maybe 1 year KKN (kuliah kerja nyata) so uh uh uh

can i do this? can i be like what i want? can i reach my dream? can i be the best?
being a doctor is not only meet your patients, asking this, asking that, touching there, touching here, listening to them, talking to them.. OMYGOD! it's really a big big big big deal. confuseeeeeeeeed. rrggh. I HAVE TO DO THIS!

oh man.
i am going to be a doctor *_*

Current Song

i am currently addicted to this song
<3

"Almost"

[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 2]
I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 3]
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

Tamia's voice is so loveable. <3 <3
i've listened to this song over and over again. and i don't get bored. hihi. love!

i miss the 'butterfly effect' in my stomach. ;p

smell ya later
smooches!

- - -

helloooooooo people!
hey hey it's been a while since the last posting. quite busy and got nothing to write on. ;) yes, i am a bad blogger.

okay. now lets start with life. how's yours guys? best? better? or well? or maybe get worse? up and down in life is a must i think. life is a huge jet coaster. the feeling you get when the train goes up down up down, happens in your life too. the same happiness, anxiety, anger, sadness, curiosity, laughter also you got in life, and maybe more! whatever it is guys, try to accept it the way it is. just a simple grateful heart and a great effort of ignorance can make my gloomy days gone and here they come the brighter ones. hehe. i miss this kinda happy and peaceful things. sorry for others tho. it is a difficult decision but this is my life (selfish)

i went to Bali on my last holiday, with my fams. i <3 Bali. i <3 the weather. i <3 the sun. ah everything! i want to upload some of my photos there, but the internet connection sucks. uh oh. i've uploaded 'em in my facebook. check out the Randoms photo album :)

be wise, people. think, think, think, think again and again before you do something. get your best!

bunch of love
xoxo

nope. this one is rubbish

lagi begah!
i wish i could have another life, sometimes. yes. it is an idiot idea and very very ungrateful. but i don't know. it seems that people just get sucks more than ever. pathetic.

oh yea anywaaaaay. you dude.. please, just go and get your own life. you haunt me, understand? please, watch your step!
geeeeez.

i want to kill somebody.
lama kelamaan gue bisa jadi apatis kalo gini caranya. save me please, anyone?



*dear Lord, forgive me..*